there is an inner turmoil.
Melancholy is my partner. Whenever I am left with my self as a companion I resort to sadness and loneliness which is opposed to what my friends see in me when I am with them. There are times when the closest of those friends can slightly grasp underneath the “happiness” but nobody really got close enough to really see under it.
This melancholic tendency is a familiar emotion for me but that does not mean that I am happy with it. I find it hard to keep a smile plastered on my face when all I want to do is sit in the corner and cry. I just want to be like every body else who seems to be carefree about life.
I want to break down these walls that I have created around me to keep others away and to protect me from the hurt that they could bring. I may not be able to get rid with this melancholy deep within me but I want to try first. I want to be happier with my life and this is my first step in my pursuit to happiness. I am writing about my dark thoughts so I can ponder about them and maybe change them.
I said I was going to sleep but I just can’t sleep without blabbering about the latest Bleach chapter- 517- Stairway to Heaven.
Apparently the Zero Division is taking Rukia, Renji, Byakuya and Tensa Zangetsu to Heaven to heal. I could understand that this four really need to go because they are damaged beyond repair of Unohana and Mayuri. What boggles me is they are also taking Ichigo with them who is totally fine.
They might need Ichigo for repairing Tensa Zangetsu but I just don’t trust the lots of them. There’s just too much secrecy around the Zero Division that I have doubts if they will make the situation better or worse. They are also kind of arrogant in the way they speak to the captains.
I guess they have the right to be like that considering that they are the Royal Guards. Still, I honestly think that there is something brewing in Kubo’s mind that might deliver more shock to my system in the near future.
(I still can’t believe that Genryuusai is dead, heck, he is the Dumbledore of Gotei 13. On a side note,they both died in battle so that makes them more epic.)
After putting it off for a very long time, I finally watched the end of Black Butler II. It did not fail me because I always loved endings where I can draw my own conclusion and for me it was not anti-climatic.
For the Trancy Household, I am happy that Alois found Hannah and Luca in the end, at least he had his almost happy ending if not for Claude. Claude caused too much deception that in the end he died in confusion— as Sebastian stated the innocent and sweet soul that he wanted did not belong to Ciel, so whose soul was it then? Claude would never know. He had his chance in devouring Alois soul but he chose to break his contract with Alois in exchange of Ciel’s.